Father

Father, we will see each other soon.
Just Me, My Brother Kris, my Dad Cesar Mario, and of course my Mom Prima Emma.
And that's all.
My Dad Cesar is Irish/Spaniard. My Mom Prima Emma is like Scottish/Portuguese.
And of course me and Kris are half you.

Those in my former family and FAM who tried to do good by me will be rewarded in other ways down the line. And they are few and far between. The rest of you, will never see us again and you are all unworthy to be in my presence.

I'm preparing Father.

~emmaruth

Mother and Father

I guess I grew up never knowing my true mother and father. But I always knew I was mixed. I always knew at least part black and native american and even from the orient. I always knew I was mixed.
That's why I thought Prima Emma was my actual mother. Because I'm mixed.

~emmaruth

Meritocracy, Integrity, Wealth

I like a meritocracy where what you earn is based on merit. I always look for high integrity and I'm usually disappointed.

I have wealth not just because my actual Mother and Father are old money, but because I have personally earned a great deal in the past 3 decades in my work for the Good Lord. I earned it. It wasn't handed to me.

Meritocracy. Many of you wouldn't understand that concept because you're looking out for handouts and a shady deal.

To them I say, "Play the Powerball or Megamillions or try your luck at the Casinos."

My wealth is what I earned on merit and integrity. And all of you will never see a dime of it.

As for helping those less fortunate, we'll use YOUR tax money. I'll have you taxed.

Did you think you were going to touch my personal wealth? Never. YOUR TAXES.

And if you want more handouts, I will raise taxes.

~emmaruth

well

well, I guess Prima Emma and Cesar Mario aren't my actual Mother and Father. However, I would like the record to show that Prima Emma is an incredible Mom and regardless I consider myself fortunate to have been so loved by her. She did right by me time and time again. She will always be my Mom and forever will be loved by me. My Dad Cesar Mario is indeed my first love, however, we divorced when I was about 10. He actually does adore me. It's just that he's my ex-love and not my current, so he gets upset. He's a good man to my Mom, Prima Emma. And if he did anything right in his existence, it's loving Prima Emma and adoring her always.
I'm glad that my parentals are Virgins with a moral compass. I learned a great deal from them as well as my Lola Sally and Lolo Cinte. I'm glad that they decided to love me, even if I'm not theirs.
As for my extended family, I have some fond memories from our childhoods and blue jean baby days. It hurts to know their parts in the 'betrayal.' I had thought of them as sisters and brothers. But sadly, they wanted me dead. My brother Kris is a wonderful brother. I couldn't have asked for a better brother.
As for Former FAM/Colleagues, many of your parts in 'betrayal' is hard to look at, especially since many of you I held in such high esteem. I would have never expected that from many of you. As for Gamino, I was elated to find out you had a son because I was worried you never would. And that you married. I was relieved and elated. Because I didn't want your mother to despise me and my family.
I'm preparing to say goodbye and bury the dead. I'm not going to visit your graves. I hope I did a little good while I was still around. I hope many of you learned lessons about integrity and how it matters. Integrity is doing the right thing even when no one is looking. It matters. All you say and do matter aways.
Some of you I loved quite dearly and the sorrow you caused by your betrayal at times was quite hard to bear. The pain was unbearable.
Goodbye.

~emmaruth

The Good Lord is asking for more

Yes, Sir/Ma'am.

hmm. Well, what am I actually looking for in real family and FAM. I don't care about your schools, titles, your name, who you know, or what you can do for me.

I look for 'angels.' Sometimes there are certain individuals I spend a great deal of time with because in them I see an angel. And it breaks my heart each and every time that angel dies.

My best friend for a long time is Michael. A homeless drug addict with no family or friends and spat on everywhere he goes. But do you know that in him I saw an angel.

I look for angels and try to help you keep your wings.

If I stay clear from you, it's because I see something sinister and unkind.

You'd be surprised how hard it is to find decent, good folk.

That's why it caused a great deal of sorrow for me to know that my former family & FAM/Colleagues would betray me so unkindly. I would have never expected that from many of you.

But, I continue on. Without you all.

~emmaruth

Well

Don't feel bad or sorry for me about those who did me wrong and dirty. It could have been worse. I could have been them.

Yes, I'm also from Andover.

It's quality and not quantity. I'm quite strict and have no tolerance for asinine behavior or individuals. And I don't like giving shitty individuals the time of day.

I appreciate the Good Lord watching over me and protecting me.

I don't have poor boundaries. And I can never be manipulated.

~emmaruth

credentials

I am about to meet my actual mother and father.

before you try to give me unsolicited advice, I'll have to vet you and look at your credentials.

you do realize that I am just amused by the narratives you try to weave and that I never watch any of the youtube videos.

and you must realize I can never be manipulated

and of course you should know that if you fuck with me I'll bash your head into the sidewalk literally

~emmaruth