because I'm in my fifties, I've just been taking stock of my entire life and preparing to leave this world. I just need to make sure I have a clear conscience. I just need to make sure that I will leave this world in a better place than when I first arrived.

The love of my life is Montaign Louis Gamino. But that was nearly 3 decades ago. And I never loved anyone truly since then.

What I missed out on is a career, kids, and marriage.

However, I like to think I was able to inspire and motivate many sad individuals out there.

You get to your fifties and you realize that so much of the nonsense just didn't matter.

But my conscience is clear.

~emmaruth